June 30th Friday Feel + July Intentions
How is it almost July?
I don't get it.
I was just wishing a happy Junebalations yesterday, I swear.
This week was good! - Food was weird and I felt really overwhelmed a couple times but in general it was very good.
Friday night was the High River Rodeo with Lauren! - Horses are pretty and cowboys are sexy. That's all you really need to know.
Saturday I ran 30 km from my parents house to the Glenmore Trail bridge (where it crosses the Bow). I set my alarm for 4:30 but decided to sleep until 7, got up, ate and was running by 9:30. It was HOT. Very hot. But I got it done and it was a great run. Saturday afternoon/night I went out of my little comfort bubble, went for drinks in Water Valley and I had dinner, drinks and a fire. Steak, potatoes, asparagus and mushrooms were on the menu. Yes steak, which I haven't had in months. It was delicious - yes I eat meat but very rarely (pun intended). I did not plan this meal, I lived and felt surprisingly comfortable! Yay!
Sunday I hiked!! I was absolute shit with food though. I know that. The hike was just under 6 hours, 15 km and fairly steep and all I had to eat was 2 small apples and a banana. I wasn't feeling food until about half way. The hike was amazing though and the company was great as well.
The rest of the week included me being out of my comfort bubble a couple times. But I was comfortably uncomfortable with it. Running was good, my achilles feels good. I WANT TO PR HIGH RIVER!!
This week I've realized how afraid I am of being myself and how ashamed I have been feeling about my recovery and who I am in general. I admitted this and opened up about it, which I'm giving myself kudos for and I think the only way I'm going to be able to change is to admit it and learn from it. I don't want to be like this but I'm afraid that I wont be liked for who I am; recovery, food anxiety, running addiction, goals, dreams, ability to slay some fish, large forehead and all! I promise I'm pretty cool. If you don't like that then F U! Just kidding, I don't actually think that but I'm kinda trying to a bit more. I am not a judgmental person. AT ALL. I believe nothing is more important than being kind to others. I just hope that people would treat me with the same kindness as I treat them.
I also love football... so I'm cool, I swear.
Running was good this week, I did a lot of speed work. Thursday was an AMAZING RUN.
I am also feeling very excited for the future and what's to come :)
AND!!!! Tina Muir is pregnant, so basically all is good in the world of running. If you don't (you probably don't) know who that is, she is an amazing elite runner with a 2:37 PR in the marathon and runs for England. Tina recently stopped running because she wanted to have a family but her body wouldn't let her because she had amenorrhea (lack of period) due to the amount she was training. Basically, not having a period isn't good and a really big tell for under eating (ED can confirm this), over working or poor nutrition. It is your body's way of saying something is wrong, it isn't happy and it definitely isn't healthy enough to sustain life and make a baby. It can't afford the effort it takes to even go through the process of producing an egg, so it doesn't bother trying. TMI COMING AT YOU!! I love Tina and I love following her story because of my own experience with amenorrhea, which I can happily say I DO NOT HAVE anymore since just after my marathon. My 26th birthday to be exact. My doctor and I shared a very happy moment on Wednesday about this. I never thought I'd be happy about getting my period, but here we are. I want to know my body is healthy and is recovering from the damage I've caused it, I also know I want to have children one day. Thanks body! Honorable mention goes out to peanut butter as well.
This week and all of June had some bad parts as well - as anyone will have. That's part of life. I am a firm believer that the bad parts of life are needed to make the good parts even better - shout out to Disney's Inside Out for reminding me of this. Honestly though! In running, it's the hard runs and the ones that really challenge you that make you stronger, even the shitty runs (Millarville comes to mind). Those long runs, the intervals where you just want to rest longer between splits, the training runs after a long day at work and definitely the hills; they all make you a better runner. The tough days will make you a better person.
Overall, June was good. Good things happened.
What I'm proud of: Opening up and getting outside of my comfort zone. AND sub 4:40 splits are dope.
What I'm grateful for: Lauren, Megan, Corrine and my family always - this is a standing order. I'm grateful for my ability to run. I'm grateful I have been able to find something I am passionate about. I'm grateful for my job, and I am ABSOLUTELY grateful that I live in an amazing and beautiful country.
I think July is going to be a good month. I can just feel it.
- Relax more - still working on this
- GET OUTSIDE - other than running
- Continue to do things that scare me
- Mindful eating
- READ MORE - I've been failing, I've also been a bit busier than normal ;)
- HALF MARATHON PR?!?!
- Strength train
Happy Friday, Happy Canada day, Happy July!!